sorry that,i made you disappointed

sometimes,i would like to give up,
for our relationship...
sometimes,i wish that,
the time could be turned back,
to the day i knew you...
sometimes,i feel that,
our relationship is almost disappear...
without any disclosure...
are all of this in my mind what i really decide to do?
i don't want...
i not willing to do like that...
but,it hurted me many times...
i lost my tears for it...
but it was meaningless...
i tried to forget,forgive and giving the chances...
time to time...
i feel tired,
and sometimes,willing to say "goodbye"...
but in my deepest heart,it don't let me to do like that...
i am so suffer,for our semi-visible relationship...
i don't know what's you are thinking for our friendship...
maybe,it is very important for you...
or maybe,it is just a small scene in your beautiful life?
what you're thinking about actually?
i never noticed that!
what should i do now?
since i was in primary school,
i never bothered anything...
when i was in secondary school,
i didn't believe in "LOVE"...
and now,
should i believe that "FRIENDSHIP" between human is eternal?
can i still believe all in this world?
for me,friendship is totally lost...
between you and me...
i am sorry about that...